The Art of Balance
Some artists are able to capture perfectly symmetrical moments, dazzling us with their ability to create order and beauty at the same time. Sadly, I am not one of those artists!
My life tends to swing like a pendulum: I work as a teacher, so fall through spring I am in overdrive, while summer finds me happily contemplating nature in a zen state. When I find joy, I feel its electric pulse through every fiber of my being; when I find sadness, it causes anguish that envelopes my heart. Even my beads are a victim to my love of entropy; I prefer the wild flow of organic shapes and designs, and only derive frustration and boredom from creating a perfect “dot” bead.
But I have come to respect and embrace the need for balance.
Balance between fun and work, family and friends, what I give to myself and what I give to others. This last part is, to me, the most important part of the balanced equation. I have always had a hard time saying no when asked a favor, always gone home from a day of teaching exhausted, because my students “needed me.” What throws me off balance the worst, is when I can’t find the time for my art and being creative.
I have learned that I need to take for myself in order to continue to give. It’s a hard idea for someone like me to wrap my head around, and yes, I feel awfully selfish when I have to say “no”. Life is a constant juggling act, we know, but I need to find time to create, or I begin to wither. I go completely off balance.